Just posting to say,"hey! I'm still alive" lol
I suppose this is more an update than a real journal... But just to give an overview of things going on in my life......
I got a job as an RA this year, which means I had to relinquish the last 3 weeks of summer to training. Not a waste of time, I actually enjoyed it, made quite a bit of friends doing it too.
I woke up crying for the first time in nearly forever because I missed my lizard... kinda silly really... but I think I was not mentally prepared to leave her behind, especially so soon in the summer. She has got to be one of the main reasons I would go back home in a heartbeat... just drop what I'm doing and GO HOME! She's got the charm most ppl lack at times, and I know she's got my back lol
The summer was not a very productive one i feel... I worked on a cosplay that I knew I would love to finish but had no materials to make it a possibility. ( Kisala from Rogue Galaxy) I decided to take on the project not knowing that the sewing machine did not work, and that because you don't have power tools doesn't mean that going through a lot of sand paper to make swords is ok by my family lol... it produces quite a bit of dust.
Other than that I think I wasn't very productive in the art department... I was in a soul searching sort of mood the whole season. After failing my final review of my second year at college in May, it kinda gave me a lot to ponder.=
Did I want to continue with graphic design? It was a forced major... I wanted to go to school for illustration, I even choose the school that had the best illustration department in my eyes. But my family wouldn't allow me pursuing that sort of career choice... hence the GD major. Did i want to just drop? Did i want to start all over in another major? I didn't know...
I guess any questions like that would make anyone really feel kinda down towards art in general.
Thankfully I decided that, YES I fucked up, I took things for granted! I'm HUMAN! at least I'm pretty sure haha.
I've been at school for 9 weeks now =] And though I'm pulling more all nighters these last few weeks than I have ever in my entire life. I feel that I have grown exponentially. All I had to do was accept my weaknesses. and along with a new hope I have a job, I have a car, improved, and I feel for the first time in a long time that I have a future.
I miss illustrating more than i can possibly explain. But I feel that I traded the pencil and pen for grids and fonts, not too bad. I can at least use them when i choose. And though my work is more "professional" ( if thats what you want to even call it) now, I feel i've been doodling more frequently than ever before. My will won't give up yet! I think I can't complain. ( This might provide new work posts for the first time in god knows how long lol)
Sorry this isn't SUPER positive... but I feel its good for you to know that It took a while, but this last stepping stone of me growing as an artist hasn't been easy, especially now that it's artist/designer. But I feel that If you have a hard time taking that leap. Do
Don't let the little things worry you to much and if nothing else learn from what has been criticized. The worst that can happen is that you choose to make yourself better than stick with what you've been doing.
k... this will have to do for now ^_^; sorry for taking so long to get back with the world, I hope your doing well and post stuff when i can
Over worked, TIRED as hell,
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